Now she has died and had a beautiful death (seems weird to say) she was filled with peace, love and God her last days and almost glowed like she was when she was pregnant with our sons. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FIND A PERSON THAT I COULD LOVE LIKE I NEVER FELT BEFORE. I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM BEFORE WE EVEN KISSED OR HELD HANDS. WELL IM HAPPY TO SAY IT; S BEEN ALMOST 7YEARS AND WERE STILL TOGATHER.
Flash forward a month or so and now I've met this wonderful women, never intended for this to happen and I feel happier than I have been in quite some time, having these open, honest conversations, but my fear is that I haven't grieved enough.
I was thirty-nine years old when my husband died unexpectedly in his sleep. He was my love, my rock, a crucial part of my life and our children’s future, and in an instant, he was gone.
A few weeks after his death, I received a letter from my insurance company.
In 1988 she earned a spot as a swimmer at the Olympic Trials. She lives in Texas with her sons Connor and Brannon.
For more information about Jennifer and her memoir, I lost my wife two months ago and am trying to sort through my feelings.
That was just the start—we wound up dating for eighteen months.
And after I’d fallen in love and spent countless hours entwined in the connection with him, I decided to stop seeing him.
I felt guilty even thinking about the possibility and could not fathom the idea of dating so soon after my husband had died. I was worried you would never want to date again after Mark.
And in time, if you wish, I hope that you’ll find someone new to share your life with.
Jennifer Hawkins is a highly successful real estate investor.
And finally I realized that I could be with a man and, furthermore, consider having a future with someone other than Mark.
So, while my first attempt at a relationship after my husband did not end up as I had wanted, it was an experience that greatly furthered my healing and growth.